recent things that have happened on my roleplay blog have made me come to question how much angst i truly enjoy. i mean, i love angst. i really, really do, but applying tragedy to something shouldn't necessarily make it better, should it? like.....you have a character who, by nature, is optimistic, and hopeful, fully aware of the dire things going on around them, but choosing to remain upbeat because they don't want to feel constantly miserable. that's the case with the character i play, morgan, from fire emblem: awakening. her optimism is a huge part of her. it's a key component to her personality. now, it's not that she never feels anything else, or that nothing affects her, but she expresses a positive outlook in whatever situation she's presented with because that's how she copes.
now. there are other morgan roleplayers. there is another that, while i love them quite a lot.....they make morgan a complete angst fest. and they're free to do that, y'know, whatever, but when people compliment their blog, they compare them to other morgans, saying that "other morgans are happy-go-lucky" and essentially calling theirs so much better when......it's in morgans character to behave happy. as much as i love their blog, they truly are skewing morgan's character. it's not wrong, but other people claiming that other blogs aren't as good for playing morgan as she is in canon??? it makes me want to throw something.
i work hard in my portrayal of morgan and retain her optimism and her generally being a little shit as best i can, because that's who she is. things will get her down, too, but. i shouldn't have to make her a complete angst fest with a tragic back story to make her interesting. that's stupid.